nak mula men-type kembali..

assalamualaikum.

ya..ya.. aku nak mula menulis balik. sebab aku banyak masa terluang sekarang.

doakan aku dapat memanfaat korg dan aku sendiri.

yeahh! (semangat hidung kembangkempis)

start awal, last minit jugak.

start your work early can reduce the % of tension.
but, the last minutes to finish up my work can make me earnest to do it.

and its a habit. habit is something hard to change.
so?
:)

if i die young

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song


Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town says he'll, love my forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

P.Ramlee

I’m sad. I’ve watched the documentary of a life of a person, the Malaysian’s best actor and director, P.Ramlee on History Channel 555 through astro the only Malaysian pay television at home. I’m not working today because of Chinese New Year Celebration (rabbit toink-toink! hehe) 

I love watch documentary or any means of sources (like movie, drama) a true story, a meaningful, touched and beautiful of life. It can be anything. A life of people, rich, poor, a nobody, a somebody, a things, an animals, a planet, which can inspired me. Which can make me think, realize, cry for just a story. That’s meaningful for me. Even I know I’m not living for full of my life but 

a quote for an ustaz (I think so because I don’t know his name) that I’ve heard on a radio ikim frequency 89.0fm in kedah, “nikmat datang kadang-kadang tapi, bersyukur harus sentiasa.”

Or in english "Grace may not always comes but, thanks should be always".

Late P.ramlee live his short life of 44 years. From nobody, he become a somebody: glamarous, successful, intelligent, brilliant, creative, a productive artist: a song and script writer, a film director, a singer, an actor, a composer. Won many international awards, his song’s, his movie’s, his dialouge’s are people favorites, always remembered and played on telvision, radio and malaysian’s mind until now. 

When its an up, theres a down. That’s what we called life. A cycle of life. At one point, after he got everything: fame, shine, success and well known, he becomes what he was at the beginning of his life, a nobody. How sad it is. Maybe others have known about the story but for me, when I watch the documentation, I’ve find out how down his life when at year 70’s everything he does seems unappreciated by others, like he was forgotten, like he is nobody as nobody cares and sometimes it seems like others are hate him. All people rejected him. He cannot produce any beautiful things. Everything seems wrong and I think, maybe that’s the end of his time. may be he died with a broken heart.

But now he is honored and respected by all Malaysians. He is someone who nobody yet can replace his place. Malaysian have not found a human with many good talents in one man: who can create beautiful, be loved songs and timeless film.

Thanks. Al-fatihah.

the 10 things

aku bersyukur beraya di Malaysia. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin semua taw! ;)

the 6 things i love about raya

1. balik rumah 
2. jumpa keluarga, saudara-mara, sahabat lama
3. duit raya~
4. mintak maaf, saling memaafi, hari plg ikhlas
5. mknan yg terbaik~semua pon sedap
6. konvoi raya ramai2

the 6 things i not that hate about raya

1. mkn banyak non-stop~gemuk la saya
2. jln kampug pon boley jamm!
3. letih konvoi seharian pg smpay mlm..
4. duit habis sbb suka sgt shopping!

sbb hari ni jumaat, cuti.

Disebabkan hari ini hari jumaat, dan cuti,

hidup aku jadi serba tak kena.

Semalam, usai solat tarawikh, 

line up nak basuh baju guna washing mechine,

tapi end up, tertidur atas katil dan membiarkan 

'personal taste' ep 4 tgk aku tertidur!

Pagi tadi sahur bihun sup utara yg tak sedap dan 

end up dgn sakit perut pukul 8 td!

Usai solat subuh, niat utk basuh baju diteruskan,

kesian baldi dan kain2 aku yg dibiarkan kesepian tanpa teman semlman,

sbb semlm que panjang, banyak baldi2 yg tgu nak menjalankan tugas

seyes lawak, bila tgk tgl baldi aku je yg tak basuh lagi!

Tadi, nak p amek baju2 yg dah kering sbb 

dah sidai lebih kurang 4jam 12minit 9saat,

end up dgn tersedar dari lamunan yg sabun 

aku bubuh utk basuh kain2 tu tadi tak cukup dan sgt sedikit, 

hsailnya, baju aku tak wangi dan mcm tak basuh pun, 

tapi duit 50sen bernilai RM2.50 dah melayang 

sbb bayar gaji mesin basuh kain tu utk berfungsi.

cisssss!!

Dah lama tak cuti hari jumaat, 

sbb dulu kat kedah mmg cuti hari jumaat, 

tapi kat selangor, cuti hari sabtu.

Mood: confuse! tak keruan.

ni semua balsan sebab dosa yg aku buat.

dlm pejalanan kaki pulang dari mandi pukul 1 td,

hati tergerak, minda bertanya,

"hari ni jumaat, kenapa cuti a?"

lalu suara sepi menjawab,

"cuti nuzul quran."

tapi ada suara sepi lain tanpa lengah membalas,

"nuzul quran tu apa?"

dgn keliru minda meneka jawapan yg hampir tak pasti,

"hari Al-quran diturunkan la kot..."

jahilnya aku!

angry till crying!

                                 dengan nama Allah yang Maha penyayang dan Maha mengasihani..

entah kenapa bangun pagi yang kali ini menimbulkan kemarahan yang melampau, 

tak leh nak bendung lagi.

aku memang tak suka bangun pagi2 dah maki2 org2, benda2 dan sebagainya.

masa tgh type ni, rasa bersyukur sgt. Alhamdulillah, terima kasih ya Allah ku yang Satu,

aku masih hidup, menghirup udara Mu, menikmati segala nikmat Mu di dunia yg fana ini.

kisah hidup ku yg ibarat tercorak di 1 kanvas putih, 

setelah warna2 ceria menghiasi, warna2 gelap menutupinya.

mengeluh tentang diri sendiri yg tak berguna. hopeless. 

aku mengaku. dan aku menyesal.

tapi untuk berubah, 

memerlukan foktor sebagai enzyme yang membantu proses tersebut.

aku perlukan kau sahabat, 

di sini tiada lain lagi yg aku harapkan selain Rahmat perlindungan dari Allah, 

dgn iringan doa tulus ikhlas dari kedua umi abah ku yg semakin di mamah usia.

kau sahabat yg akan menuntun aku di tepian sekiranya aku jatuh, aku jauh dari Allah.

ini ujian hidupku.

sebenarnya apa yg membuatkan aku geram dan marah sgt, 

bila kawan2 sediri yg demotivatekan aku,

kebanyakan mereka memandang sisi negative aku,

dan memperkatakannya, 

tahukan kau sahabat, setiap perkataan mu itu umpama doa?

kenapa kau mendoakan yg buruk2 kpd aku?

yg sebenarnya aku yg salah.

tahu x? tak baik salahkan org lain, 

1jari jari telunjuk yg memanah tepat ke org lain, 

3 lagi jari yg kukuh menunjuk ke arah diri sendiri. 

 

diri sendiri yg salah, nak salahkan org lain, 

diri sendiri yg tertidur, nak salahkan org lain sbb tak tlg kejutkan sampai bangun tidur,

(sbb aku susah nak bangun kalau dah tertidur kepenatan),

diri sendiri yg tak set jam bangun sahur, nak salahkan org lain sbb tak bersahur,

diri sendiri yg tak mkn mknan yg mahal yg sendiri yg beli sbb dah tertidur, 

nak salahkan org lain jugak sbb org lain mkn je, kenapa aku tak makan?

diri sendiri yg buat perangai jahat, nak salahkan org lain sbb dok mengata kat aku,

diri sendiri yg tak bermotivasi, nak salahkan org lain, sbb selalu downkan aku,

dah la, nak buat mcm mana lagi, terima lah hakikat. semua org pun tak sempurna.